The Wall… December 14, 2011
Posted by lisawifemom in Random Thoughts and Observations.Tags: i'm toast, impending move, Stress, the wall
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I’m about done, I can see the wall and although I’m trying desperately to avoid the wall, my strength has drained to the point of almost being useless in stopping me from crashing right into it.
It’s just all so much to bear and for some reason today was an especially hard day to bear it. It’s a terrible time of year to find a rental; no one is moving during the holidays, so although we need to move out by 12/30/11, we still don’t have anywhere to go.
I need to pack. I have started, and started purging, but nowhere near where I should be two weeks before we move. As grateful as I am for having a job, finally (that’s another post), I come home so exhausted every night that I can’t find the energy to do much packing. I’m sure it’s not really the job exhausting me as much as it is the stress of current life.
My poor children are showing signs of suffering. Nothing major but stuff that I can see, feel. Not only am I around MUCH less so they miss their lifestyle and me; their house looks like a tornado has gone thru it (oh, did I mention I haven’t been cleaning either); and they know about and don’t quite understand the impending move.
This is all going on during the holidays, but we have not decorated. Seems ridiculous to add the stress of unpacking, decorating, un-decorating and repacking to the already stressful job of packing and moving. However, it is making for a very festive-less Christmas for us all. I wanted to close my eyes while driving around tonight to avoid seeing one more decorated house. Of course that would not have been safe so…well you get the picture.
Anyway, this too shall pass, things happen for a reason and it’ll all work out; all things that I believe, it’s just that sometimes life and tears cloud up your vision and it’s hard to see those things.
P.S. It feels good to just get it out, vent about having a hard day; that alone puts the wall a little further away. Now I can go to sleep and wake up feeling refreshed and ready to conquer tomorrow!
